There Is Always a Way Back

By the miraculous grace and forgiveness of my family, I'm able to surround myself with people who love me and were willing to give me a second chance. Addiction and sobriety divides lives into two phases: before and after. Personally, I was so damaged from cocaine addiction that I prefer to think of it as a past life, because it's hard to think that the person I am now could have ever done what I did when I was getting high. 
 
I came to Miami from Ohio for school, and I had thought my value system and sense of right and wrong were enough to protect me from the culture shock. There were people all around me living their lives drunk or high on meth and coke. I relished the night-life as much as anyone ever had, but always managed to keep my vices to weed and liquor. I first tried cocaine, because I wanted a little something extra. The more I was around it, the less harmful it appeared. I had known several people who were functioning cocaine abusers, at least while I knew them. 
 
After about six months, I started doing it so much that my nose would bleed almost every other day. It was like nature was trying to remind that it was time to stop. By that time, however, I was already addicted and had begun stealing from my friends and my academic adviser to score. I avoided going for holidays because I didn't want my parents to see me the way I was. I thought if I could stay away long enough and wean myself off, they would never notice. Withdrawal got the better of me, and I didn't last two weeks sober. 
 
I finally decided to get help when my friend's father, who luckily happened to be a doctor, found me high in my car in front of his house. My parents flew down and it was one of the most humiliating experiences of my life, but one I needed to go through. I'm certain I'd be dead if it wasn't for my family and friends. I would have waited until the last breath of the eleventh hour, and by then it would have been too late. I took the rest of the year off from school to enter cocaine drug rehab and figure out where everything went wrong in my life. 
 
In treatment I learned to be mindful of the past, but not to dwell on it. It would have been easy for me to just leave treatment and feel sorry for myself, but that wasn't an option for me. Before I picked up this stuff, I was a determined, capable and vibrant person; cocaine drug rehab helped me get all of that back. I graduated college a year after completing treatment and have to slap myself in the face when I consider where my life has wound up versus where it could have. It was an ugly chapter, but it made me who I am today. 
 

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