The Tortoise and The Hare

Growing up I never believed in the philosophy that  "slow and steady wins the race" or "everything in moderation" was the best way to live your life. If something made me feel good, I wanted more and more of it . . . until it eventually made me sick to the point that I didn't want any more. This had been true of everything, from food to alcohol to pot to gambling and everything else. When I was away at college I was in a lucky position of having money in my pocket from my parents and I used that money to purchase cocaine which had become my new favorite drug. Although I'd had done drugs in high school I never felt like the same rush as I did with cocaine. This was how I wanted to feel all the time. I told myself if I couldn't live life at this speed, it simply wasn't worth living. 

At some point though I began to experience some health complications. I lost a whole lot of weight, I began to shake for no reason and then my nose felt like a piece of hot coal just resting on my face. Eventually I began to have trouble breathing and was having terrifying nightmares all the time. After a while, I could only sleep for about two to three hours per night on average. I knew something was really wrong, but I still couldn't stop using cocaine.
It wasn't until my parents threatened to cut me off financially that I agreed to go to a local outpatient program for help. The local outpatient rehab I went to was a joke and a complete waste of time. People there told me it was so much better than the government funded free clinics so I went in with high expectations. Maybe outpatient works for other serious addicts but it wasn't enough to get me to stay clean. My parents told me they saw a TV commercial for an inpatient cocaine rehab in Florida and contacted them for me. They put me on the plane to Florida and I went there with the attitude that this was going to be another waste of time. But what I found when I was there was that everything was a completely opposite experience of what I encountered at the local outpatient rehab. I can honestly say that you could not have two more different experiences than inpatient versus outpatient treatment.
At my inpatient rehab I learned all the behavioral and mental health reasons that made me want to do drugs in the first place. The most valuable thing I learned was how to get a handle on the impulses and dangerous flirtations that excite me, but could also potentially kill me. After I successfully completed my cocaine rehab and got back home I knew that I could no longer be friends with other coke addicts anymore if I wanted to stay clean. When I saw some of them for the first time months later, they barely recognized the new me.  I was glad that they felt uncomfortable around the new me because I also felt uncomfortable around them too. They were exactly the same, still coke addicts and I was not and never wanted to be again. I have been clean and sober for one year and intend to stay that way for the rest of my years. I use to identify with the rabbit in the tortoise and the hare story that I use to make fun about "slow and steady wins the race". Now I am perfectly fine just being the tortoise and let all the other rabbits run by me in the fast lane.

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